couldnt sleep last night, so had the craziest dilemna once again of what to do. read? no thankyou. get back up, my duvet was waaay too comfy and i wouldve disturbed my sleeping bears (pictures of the cats soon to come) chain smoke? cancer. tweet, nope i forgot im not pretentious. vanilla latte, then i defitnely wouldnt sleep. anyway i settled my wooes with getting creative, wrote and drew. heres what i did.
"ive lost what once i had found,
trapped in the lies that i drowned
now blind to what i could see,
heart breaking with every beat
getting high but staying low,
lost the words that used to flow
cold hands your touch turned warm,
struggling to take some form
whisky to take the edge off pain,
cigarette stubs and memories remain
half remembering your taste and smell,
trapped away in my brains prison cell
using rubbers to erase permanent ink,
never jumping toes at the brink
stretched in bed filling the space,
sketching the remainders of your face
crashing your car going too fast,
god never warned us heaven wont last
take what i can get from this love,
bandage my skin when it gets rough
glue the puzzle peices into a whole,
shit doesnt matter cause i love you doll
ripped tights and broken heels,
please make me fly just to feel
lights camera action time to shine,
lipstick fake smile, i am fine
submerge me in promises you wont keep,
you can sow and you know il reap"
- thats all i did last night, not sure where im going with it and if it is going anywhere at all, but yeah copyright that to me. its inspired, he said he doesnt believe in regrets but i regret to inform him that i do. fingers crossed for an early night tonight -
birthday in 3 days, festive mood. anyway how il be celebrating other than going to manchester, bucks fizz for breakfast, full english breakfast -without the mushrooms, hash browns, tomatoes and beans, so not quite so full, get another peircing (itl be my sixth), have some cocktails that look nicer than they taste, wear my new asos deliverys and listen to alot of lana del rey. lets see how close i actually stick to this!
"ive lost what once i had found,
trapped in the lies that i drowned
now blind to what i could see,
heart breaking with every beat
getting high but staying low,
lost the words that used to flow
cold hands your touch turned warm,
struggling to take some form
whisky to take the edge off pain,
cigarette stubs and memories remain
half remembering your taste and smell,
trapped away in my brains prison cell
using rubbers to erase permanent ink,
never jumping toes at the brink
stretched in bed filling the space,
sketching the remainders of your face
crashing your car going too fast,
god never warned us heaven wont last
take what i can get from this love,
bandage my skin when it gets rough
glue the puzzle peices into a whole,
shit doesnt matter cause i love you doll
ripped tights and broken heels,
please make me fly just to feel
lights camera action time to shine,
lipstick fake smile, i am fine
submerge me in promises you wont keep,
you can sow and you know il reap"
- thats all i did last night, not sure where im going with it and if it is going anywhere at all, but yeah copyright that to me. its inspired, he said he doesnt believe in regrets but i regret to inform him that i do. fingers crossed for an early night tonight -
